I’m 6’3″ tall, with a large frame–so looking at me, you wouldn’t think I’m over 100 lbs. overweight.  But I am.  I gained this weight primarily from being on 400 mg. Seroquel.  And though I’ve been able (with my psychiatrist’s approval) to lower it to 200, I still have to take it. 

I got back from Winn-Dixie a moment ago, having purchased some Jones Pure Cane Cola.  Because I’m not exercising at all, right now, I feel bloated after every meal.  I’m a member of a TOPS (Taking Off Pounds Sensibly) chapter, in which I weigh-in every meeting.  After the last meeting, I decided to stop drinking soda.  That would have made a difference, since I was drinking it after every coffee (i.e. every meal).  But soda relieves the bloating!  And in the last two days, while I’ve been drinking no soda, I’ve been bloated more!

So I went to Winn-Dixie for the sugar-free Jones.  Only one problem, it’s got citric acid–that’s the second ingredient listed.  And citric acid burns the hell out of my stomach!  Thus I had to get the regular.   And though I got the cola–which has less sugar than the cream–I’ll still continue gaining weight.

I wish my body demanded as much activity as my brain!  If that were the case, I’d be exercising like mad!  But it doesn’t.

I’ve been hyperactive all my life–not physically, but mentally.  My mind must be occupied, at all times, or I get bored.  And I am literally frightened of boredom!  That’s why I’m writing this post–just  to use my mind, before I eat with my singles group in a little over two hours.

I tried reading another blog, but couldn’t focus.  Then I  resumed watching “Unfaithful” ( I can’t watch an entire film, in one sitting, so I bookmark the DVD, and return to it later).  But the second sex scene was about to occur (I’d seen this movie before), and I was already getting horny.  Horniness is tension, and there’s only one way to release it.  But I didn’t want to make a mess, since I was cleaned-up for the dinner (yeah right, you never masturbate).  So I had to bookmark it again. 

That’s when I decided to go to Winn-Dixie.  Now I’ve finished two cans of Jones Pure Cane Cola, and do feel less bloated.  I need to start walking again (I prefer swimming, but there’s no pool anywhere near my house).

Well, I can’t write anymore.  Maybe I can mark the time on “Unfaithful”, and start a different movie in my endless stack of new DVD’s (most from the $5 bin, at Walmart).  But when will I finish “Unfaithful”?  Actually, I have a VHS copy of the film, but I got the DVD because it has an alternate ending.  And I hate the ambiguous ending!


  1. 1 cowgalutah March 5, 2009 at 12:26 am

    thanks for the visit to my place.

    I have had a great time reading around here today…sorry for some reason I can’t comment while I’m at work.

    As per the masturbating…well I try to avoid it at all costs when I am dressed up and ready to go out on the town.

    I hope you got a chance to finish your movie! That kind of tension can build up and…well I’m sure you know all about it!

    • 2 solosocial March 5, 2009 at 1:14 am

      That’s the best compliment I’ve gotten, on my blog–thank you!

      I did finish “Unfaithful”, but was pissed-off–there was no alternate ending, only an extension of the original ending!

      Now I’ve been watching a movie called, “There Will Be Blood”. Fortunately, it has no sex, just violence. It’s based on an Upton Sinclair novel, entitled, “Oil!”–though I’ve never read it. This film is superb! It’s similar to “Giant”, and the TV series, “Dallas”–though much darker (these two men make “J.R. Ewing” look nice)!

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